By the time we are women, fear is as familiar to us as air; it is our element. We live in it, we inhale it, we exhale it, and most of the time we do not even notice it. Instead of “I am afraid,” we say, “I don’t want to,” or “I don’t know how,” or “I can’t.”
Wake up early. Drink coffee. Work hard. Be ambitious. Keep your priorities straight, your mind right and your head up. Do well, live well and dress really well. Do what you love, love what you do. It is time to start living.
Of course I’m tired of being brave. I’m tired of holding up my head, of saying no. Most days, my bones ache with the weight of it. I want to be soft. I want to be quiet. I want to collapse in on myself, go supernova with the way I long to be cowardly.